Do you know that movie trick they do, when someone is thinking about something, trying not to think about something, or wishing really hard for something, or he is scared-obsessed about it; if they, for example flip through channels on the television, each channel will be talking about that specific thing in a different way each time? Or going on a drive, all the billboards and signs outside upon which your eyes will fall will be pointing to that, or be related in someway to that?
Well, I was thinking…it happens so many times on television. Where does this idea come from? I mean, is it based off an actual occurrence or natural phenomenon that goes unnoticed but exists in the real life, or has it been fabricated from scratch in some one’s mind.
Then I thought I’ve seen this so much; maybe even the fact that this portrayal is so recurrent on television, is because I’ve been thinking about that too much.
This is a little freaky.
I don’t know if it is confirming or breaking down the theory.
I tore open the surface tolet him in, where no one else had ever been, where no one was ever allowed, to let him see inside.
That, I never showed to anyone, cause they wouldn’t understand, they wouldn’t like it, and they wouldn’t like me, they would run away, horrified.
And he ran away too.
– I feel horrible. I feel like I’m losing you. I’m scared.
– What? You know I’m here and I love you. It’s all in your head, don’t you worry about that.
– It’s in my head. Exactly. If losing you is in my head, then having you too could be in my head. And the more I think of it, the more it seems that that is how it is actually. It’s all in my head, and whatever I conceive of existing outside of it, well it isn’t there. There is nothing else outside my head. And I don’t know if it’s a good or a bad thing. You know it’s like how I always take this example where I’m looking at this chocolate cake and you’re looking at it too. But you’re seeing a cheesecake. And I think you’re seeing a chocolate cake too. And you think I’m seeing a cheesecake too. But there is no way of seeing it from the same perspective. And we keep on talking about the same object thinking we are talking about the same thing we are seeing, but we are not. And that is kind of alienating. You think you share something. But for that person, that thing is a something else totally. So you’re not sharing anything in the end. It’s like that popular question, “How do you know that your red looks like my red?”
And that brings me to think we are all very alone in our mind-created worlds, full of subjectivity and influences we’ve been exposed to since childhood, that have shaped our conception of the world, our view of the world. Taking an almost impossible hypothetical situation where all influences and subjectivity have been kept to a null value, then the resulting or non-resulting image of the world is going to be as close to the actual object, taking the world to be the object, and our image of it as a mathematical transformation.
The next important question is: can we undo the influences that came to be stuck onto us? If yes, is it through a conscious or unconscious effort? What would support the ‘yes’ answer to the question are the latest scientific findings about how our genes are able to rewrite themselves, and how our neural networks are constantly rewiring connections, ceasing old ones, making new ones, etc.